I had the privilege of having an artist for my best friend many years ago. When I decided to follow the promptings of God and step out in faith, leave a job I loved, sell everything I had, and wait on God, she hand-crafted a beautiful journal for me to record God’s Faithfulness. I came across that journal today and opened it up, being reminded of those sweet years. It was hard to make that step. I was in the prime of my life and everything was just perfect in my mind. I loved my job, my friends, my community, my church, my home, my life…and then God spoke to me over several months about laying it all down and wait on Him.
Below is the first entry I made into that journal. Keep in mind I had literally sold everything I had, was living in the basement of a friend’s house, had no income, and everything I owned fit into the backseat of my car. I had nothing and I did not know what I was supposed to do or where provision was to come from. I lived this way for 10 months while waiting for God to reveal the next step in my life. Within a month I had paid off my car and was debt free, and paid cash for a trip to California, >> but had no job. Go figure! Ironically, I’m in a similar circumstance today as I recently closed my business and am facing some financial needs. I’m often asked what my next steps are and I don’t know, just like 20 years ago. But I will wait for God’s direction and I anticipate seeing His goodness play out over the next few months.
God’s Faithfulness: Jan. 15, 1996
My first day after leaving my job in response to God’s leading. Was seeking Him this very morning for my provision and to reveal Himself. [God] met me this morning and revealed Himself through another’s experience….Then, [a friend] called with a word he received for me. He felt very strong to call, that it was from the Lord. The words given to him were: “Continue on and He will provide”! Hence, the penny I picked up to remind me, it was laying near the phone when he called. IN GOD I WILL TRUST.
That was one of the most beautiful times in my life. Sometimes I wonder if I still have the spirit of a “living sacrifice” that I did back then. You were setting me up for something amazing and I was overwhelmed at at all that was happening. It was shortly after that, though, that I threw it all away. I stepped off the path that You put me on and it’s been 20 years of picking up the pieces of the mess I made. I am still grateful for Your faithfulness. You are so good to me. Thank you for the provision during that time and I thank You for the reminder today that you are still My Provider! Amen.
[As I sat down to write this post I looked at my feet and saw this:
For me, it is another gentle reminder that He is watching over me as yesterday a worrisome financial situation occurred that in the past would have thrown me into a panic. However, instead of panicking I declared His goodness to me, that I would not worry and that all would be made right. Today, this penny is a reminder of God’s continual interest in me and love for me! It will be added to my faithfulness journal.]
In what ways has God shown His faithfulness to you?