I like to think about Heaven. What will it be like, who I will see, what will surprise me most, etc. I actually can not wait to get there!
I also like to read stories of people who have entered Heaven and then returned. I will say I am very selective about what I allow myself to read or hear as God’s Word is clear that we are to guard our minds and hearts carefully and our enemy loves to distort truth and appears most in ways that seem lovely. He is a counterfeit, he will always try to offer an imitation of what is real and I think the subject and experience of Heaven is one that satan uses often because we all have a strong innate desire to know about it. Continue reading
[I realize that this is another heavy post about suicide within a very short time. However, sometimes life dictates what I write about. My heart aches for those who feel so lost, helpless, and alone. Remember, you ARE loved. You ARE a treasure. Your life DOES matter. Whatever your circumstances they WILL get better. God IS sufficient!]
I am so sad. My sweet, beautiful friend tried to kill herself this week.
My emotions are everywhere. We had just spend a few evenings together as girl friends in order to encourage her through a tough time. I confess that after the shock of hearing what happened my thoughts turned inward and I started thinking about what I could have done differently. I had just been with her. We hugged, cried, smiled, laughed; but then a short time later her mind filled with such darkness that she wanted to die enough to try, and almost succeeded. I’m am thankful she was found and is now safe. I love my friend. I see so many amazing things in her. Continue reading
History is good for the soul.
One of the benefits of homeschooling is all the learning that I get to do as well. In our World History lessons this week the story of Blandina – Martyred in A.D. 177 in Lyon, France – caught my attention and I researched it more on my own. Continue reading
A year ago I wanted to die.
For nearly 2 months all I could think about was dying and begging you to take my life. I remember having a knife in my hand in the kitchen and having to throw it down and run away because the desire to use it on myself was so great. I think about where I was emotionally and spiritually. It seems like a lifetime away and a different person. At the beginning of the year I made my goal to “Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness”. I had no idea the changes that would take place because of that commitment and the struggle that ensued right after I determined to be solely focused on You. The struggle for my very life. How can a Christian want to die? But I did. Continue reading
Bible reading can be so boring and frustrating. Many people read out of duty and obligation because that is what is expected or they think that is what makes them a good “Christian”; but do you get anything out of it? You close the book and within 15 seconds you couldn’t tell anyone what you just read. And if you could it doesn’t really excite you or you didn’t learn anything. That has happened to me far too many times than I can recall. Continue reading
Today I am wondering about faith. What does it mean to have faith? Continue reading